40th: The Frogs of Haruhi Suzmiya
[Okay so her not!date a few days ago ended up a disaster all things considered. She's really not sure how to handle facing Kyon or Minato even four days later hence my need to have a second post such a short time later. She's sort of hunt out in the Brigade's front room or at her house -- it's too cold to really sit on the roof of her house, like she might otherwise do. She meant to just be introspective and avoid people other than housemates or people who came to call, even having a silent period in Brigade Meetings.
But well, now there's elves. She ignored the elf for the first day, but it's still here and honestly, the first few requests about hanging up decorations or fixing up that tree Minato and her still got despite the failure of that day. So she does those. Then, its fourth request is... to go caroling all over town for two hours.
Silly.
It's silly, but it's just silly enough for her to want to do it. Honestly, it didn't even tell her what she had to sing. So--- Haruhi will be going all over town, to knock on the front doors of various houses and then sing songs ranging from: Eye of the Tiger to God Knows to Lost My Music, and maybe even a little Pillows. Basically, anything she can recall how to sing off hand. The blatant defiance of the elf's no doubt intended edict of doing Christmas songs feels good. She'll do more things by the book for the elf later, sure, but right now, this level of defiance feels very good.
Feel free to encounter her whole she's "caroling," between houses (with her getting increasingly happy the closer to the end of her run she is), or during her avoidance period. PS: If you're in the Brigade, see here for New Years discussion.]
But well, now there's elves. She ignored the elf for the first day, but it's still here and honestly, the first few requests about hanging up decorations or fixing up that tree Minato and her still got despite the failure of that day. So she does those. Then, its fourth request is... to go caroling all over town for two hours.
Silly.
It's silly, but it's just silly enough for her to want to do it. Honestly, it didn't even tell her what she had to sing. So--- Haruhi will be going all over town, to knock on the front doors of various houses and then sing songs ranging from: Eye of the Tiger to God Knows to Lost My Music, and maybe even a little Pillows. Basically, anything she can recall how to sing off hand. The blatant defiance of the elf's no doubt intended edict of doing Christmas songs feels good. She'll do more things by the book for the elf later, sure, but right now, this level of defiance feels very good.
Feel free to encounter her whole she's "caroling," between houses (with her getting increasingly happy the closer to the end of her run she is), or during her avoidance period. PS: If you're in the Brigade, see here for New Years discussion.]
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So what happened?
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[Now that she got the big thing out of the way, this comes out easier, less bitter than she'd thought. Really, she just feels sad, feeling none of the resentment she expected she would feel if she admitted it outright. Maybe she actually is over all that and she wasn't lying to herself when she said she was protecting him.]
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'Coming back to that incident once again. I've apologized before for leaving - whatever that means; not for it being my fault, but for the consequences of it. Now I just don't know what to say. What happened during that first year I was here? How did -- but it was a completely different scenario, too, right? Because whatever it means for her to be "a guy" and me to be "a girl"... I guess we explored the consequences of that once, and it's different. Really different. It doesn't necessarily mean anything here.']
So you moved on.
['Not trying to accuse anyone of anything here, but I guess I need to figure out the facts.']
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[And she never got closure. And she never made it clear this was the case to him because it was just easier, for both of them]
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[He sighs.]
Well. That makes... some kind of sense, then.
['That makes this even worse.']
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[A beat]
...Yeah, I guess I can see it.
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[...] Which I guess means they didn't get too much suffering, but... [It's cruel in that she didn't get more time with them]
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...I mean, it's a growth process, right? Shocked, baffled, driven out of your mind, then realizing some things are worth working on.
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[In spite of herself, she turns a bit to pout a little]
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Hey, if we lose our memories when we go home, we could've been in any number of them.
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And then there's dreams, too. That's another whole category where you could say you're in a different universe.
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[Huff]
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[Shrug.]
Well, all right.
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