godbent | 40th: The Frogs of Haruhi Suzmiya

[Okay so her not!date a few days ago ended up a disaster all things considered. She's really not sure how to handle facing Kyon or Minato even four days later ~~hence my need to have a second post such a short time later~~. She's sort of hunt out in the Brigade's front room or at her house -- it's too cold to really sit on the roof of her house, like she might otherwise do. She meant to just be introspective and avoid people other than housemates or people who came to call, even having a silent period in Brigade Meetings.

But well, now there's elves. She ignored the elf for the first day, but it's still here and honestly, the first few requests about hanging up decorations or fixing up that tree Minato and her still got despite the failure of that day. So she does those. Then, its fourth request is... to go caroling all over town for two hours.

Silly.

It's silly, but it's just silly enough for her to want to do it. Honestly, it didn't even tell her what she had to sing. So--- Haruhi will be going all over town, to knock on the front doors of various houses and then sing songs ranging from: Eye of the Tiger to God Knows to Lost My Music, and maybe even a little Pillows. Basically, anything she can recall how to sing off hand. The blatant defiance of the elf's no doubt intended edict of doing Christmas songs feels good. She'll do more things by the book for the elf later, sure, but right now, this level of defiance feels very good.

Feel free to encounter her whole she's "caroling," between houses (with her getting increasingly happy the closer to the end of her run she is), or during her avoidance period. PS: If you're in the Brigade, see here for New Years discussion.]

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So you think he has the right?

[she's just whining now, really]

No, I don't think he does, but you should probably think a little more before calling someone a baby.

What I do think is that you should consider how important he should be to you. When you forget this place, these people, me, he will be someone you will remember. Someone that will always be with you. Don't take that for granted.

[...]

So what, he automatically counts for more than anyone I've met here?

[She says this distantly, trying not to be accusatory]

No, but I do think you're treating it as less than what it's actually worth.

No I'm not, Winry.

[Still distantly]

If you're not then you are certainly acting like you are.

[She slams her head on the counter and groans a little] I never told him we dated.

[That was said quietly]

What...?

I've never told Kyon that we dated. [A beat, and she says it stronger, shifting her head to look up at Winry] Or as you'd remember it, he dated her, but it's the same thing.

And what's that supposed to mean? You're doing him some great service?

Don't put words in my mouth, Winry! ...Look. It's just- it was easier. For both of us.

Yes, but... how is this not taking him for granted, Haruhi? So you made a choice to make things easier on you both. He probably feels unneeded by you here- unwanted. Is that how you treat a person you used to be friends with?

Do you really think telling him helps?

[She is, for once, sincerely seeking Winry's opinion. She's lost. She's scared, and frustrated, and lost]

Edited 2013-01-24 04:27 (UTC)

No, that's not- My point isn't about you keeping secrets! How do you treat him, Haruhi? How do you talk to him? Do you share how you feel with him? Do you tell him what's bugging you? Do you treat him like a friend?

He may feel like an ex to you, but to him he's being shunned out of the life of the only person he has from home. Do you understand how that must hurt?

...What,so I'm just supposed to be some big gooey blob of emotion that tells people everything?! That's embarrassing, Winry!

[She pouts into the counter and takes another cookie to devour it. She knows what she's getting at, but... she didn't think she'd boxed him out or anything, just didn't make some things clear to him because it would be easier for both of them]