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Entry tags:
- @anne shirley,
- @kouki wakahisa,
- @kurt wagner,
- @leon d.s. geeste,
- @mikage celestine,
- @minato arisato,
- @neku sakuraba,
- @shiki misaki,
- @taichi yagami,
- @uriko nonomura,
- @winry rockbell,
- an attempted band-aide,
- compartmentalizing 101,
- doing her very best,
- for real this time,
- she's a girl after all,
- the real haruhi,
- the road is still long and dark,
- this counts as a compromise,
- what we're growing up to be,
- winry and my relationship is not awkward
7th: The Catharsis of Haruhi Suzumiya
[So yesterday afternoon things went bad. Things went very bad just as soon as things were looking up. But... as soon as she shut the book, Haruhi found she wasn't mad anymore. She just had a good cry for a while and then settled in for doing nothing for the rest of the night. She even got to sleep early It's not so much that she wasn't upset as much as... she suddenly felt too tried to possible care about anything like that. Too tired to care about anything. So she slept and hung out at home and was so confused that she didn't know how to do anything. Housemates can jack in here if they feel like it But anyway, the point is...
She decided not to feel bad.
She ignored the sinking feeling she felt in her gut all the way to when she got up and started going through the motions the next morning. Motions which included dragging Winry out to the shops earlier. And presumably talking to her more before and/or after it. The point is, she fills up her morning with the other girl which... leads us to the afternoon.]
[Filtered from Minato and Keiichi // Voice // 85% Unhackable]
[In a much happier voice than anyone is probably expecting:] Kurt, Tacihi, Leon, Mikage, Uriko, [because she doesn't know she's gone yet] Yoohoo, Anne- status reports?
[Naoki she knows what's up. Keiichi... just no. Hanyuu and Rena are with Keiichi. Minako is with her twin. No need to ask about any of them]
...SOS-Brigade! We didn't have one today and we won't have our customary Saturday lunch either, but starting next week, meetings are on again! Be sure to show up, and being late will result in a harsh penalty! No mistakes, got it?! The snow's been melting left and right already, and today is even hotter than all the other days so far, right?! So pretty soon it's going to be spring, and we've got lots of important things to do in spring! And for that matter, anyone else who has a mystery or something for us to deal with who who plans to in the future, drop us a line! You can't miss us!
Over and out!
[And then, well, there's one more message she needs to address now. She's (finally) hanging out in her Brigade room if anyone for some reason will be there in the afternoon and early evening to bump into her there]
[Filtered to Minato // 85% Unhackable]
...Hey.
She decided not to feel bad.
She ignored the sinking feeling she felt in her gut all the way to when she got up and started going through the motions the next morning. Motions which included dragging Winry out to the shops earlier. And presumably talking to her more before and/or after it. The point is, she fills up her morning with the other girl which... leads us to the afternoon.]
[Filtered from Minato and Keiichi // Voice // 85% Unhackable]
[In a much happier voice than anyone is probably expecting:] Kurt, Tacihi, Leon, Mikage, Uriko, [because she doesn't know she's gone yet] Yoohoo, Anne- status reports?
[Naoki she knows what's up. Keiichi... just no. Hanyuu and Rena are with Keiichi. Minako is with her twin. No need to ask about any of them]
...SOS-Brigade! We didn't have one today and we won't have our customary Saturday lunch either, but starting next week, meetings are on again! Be sure to show up, and being late will result in a harsh penalty! No mistakes, got it?! The snow's been melting left and right already, and today is even hotter than all the other days so far, right?! So pretty soon it's going to be spring, and we've got lots of important things to do in spring! And for that matter, anyone else who has a mystery or something for us to deal with who who plans to in the future, drop us a line! You can't miss us!
Over and out!
[And then, well, there's one more message she needs to address now. She's (finally) hanging out in her Brigade room if anyone for some reason will be there in the afternoon and early evening to bump into her there]
[Filtered to Minato // 85% Unhackable]
...Hey.
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[And now, her hands are balling into a fist as she sits here. He's hard to be upset. It's hard to feel things. She wants to - needs to - just get mad. Being mad is easier. Blaming someone is easier. she has to blame someone. Forget what Winry says. What does Winry know about this?]
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[it's understandable, isn't it? He made it through all that stress and home. But it hadn't disappeared.... It was just building.]
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What the fuck is wrong with you?!
[And here comes the unexpected. Haruhi cocks her arm back and aim to slug the sedated boy. Right in the gut]
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What the hell?! What is wrong with you?! What are you doing?! What are you doing listening to me you goddamn moron?!
[And now cocking back for a third punch-]
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[Her voice breaks there, and she tries to yank her arm free]
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[not letting go. Sorry girl.]
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What do you know?! What does he-?! Why is he so stupid?!
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Where does this stupid bastard get off?! [She turns her head to the other bed in boy, no doubt making a scene by now] Do you love me that much?! Enough to kill yourself?! If so, then why make that rant?! Why say I'm wrong?! Answer me, you goddamn useless moron!
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What rant?
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Saying I'm playing the victim! Saying I'm bad because I'm blaming people! Saying he doesn't deserve a punishment! Saying I'm to blame for his bullshit with Rena and the others and the war and all of this?! And then he turns around and after ignoring every. Damn. Thing. I said he goes and listens to what I say when I'm sick with grief?!
[This voice breaks entirely mid-way through that and this last part is probably fairly incoherent]
What the hell is WRONG WITH HIM?!
[And here, she pulls her head back and head-butts Minato. Fortunately, due to height-difference, it's into his chest, not his head]
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It's not a passionate hug. It's nothing like the embraces they shared during that week. It's just one person trying to comfort another.]
He's lonely. [he doesn't actually know, can't know what Keiichi's thinking, but he can only draw on his own experience here] And confused. It was fake but it still hurts now it's gone.
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[And she trials off here, leaning into him. Onto him. Her arms go limp and the fire fades. She doesn't hug back, but she accepts being hugged for now]
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...I think he'll be happy you care, Haruhi.
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I don't! I... don't. I-
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[if it's the hug he'll let go. But only if she won't punch Keiichi.]
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...We've fought too. We've... done all of that too.
[She's now leaning in on his face. Just. What even is this]
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You can have love without romance.
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Do you think I'm stupid too?!
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